May 5th, 9:30PM

I had other things that I wanted to write about, but none are as important as this post is.

May 5th, 2009 at 9:30PM will forever be burned in my mind.

Justin's Mother called our house at that moment to tell us that Justin's Dad had been killed in a vehicle accident.

May 5th, 2009 has forever changed the man that my husband is. It will forever change the wonderful woman that my mother-in-law is. It will change the life of my sister-in-law who is pregnant.

We don't know the details of the accident at this time.

Within 15 minutes, an officer was at our door with tears pouring out of his eyes grieving with Justin. Before I knew it, Tracy was at my door and scooping Justin and I up in her arms. Within a half hour of the call, Justin was on his way to Pierre to be with his Mom. Not long after that, a friend came over that I'd had a falling out with about a year and a half ago. He put his feelings aside and came to be with me, his friends wife.

In a few hours I'm going to have to break Nathan's heart. He's a self proclaimed "Papa Fan". I doubt that Claire is going to understand, but she'll more than likely react the way others around her react.

How am I going to do this? How am I going to tell Nathan?

I'll get through it I guess. I'll do the best I can do. It's all I've got.

I'm going to cancel my appointments for Wednesday and stay home with the kids. After that - I'm not sure. If I'm not behind my chair - I'm not getting paid...an ENORMOUS downfall of being self employed.

We were lucky enough to see my father-in-law this past Friday and Saturday. We had plans to see him again this Friday. Nathan's birthday is Sunday and we were going to have his party on Saturday. We'll have to see what happens.

Please pray for the entire Meyer family. We are all hurting right now.

So please, pray.