Ok, so I'm not naked, but I feel naked. I feel defeated and sad. To my male readers, you might want to just stop here.
I guess my body is done making milk.
I pumped yesterday morning and didn't even get a collective 2 ounces.
Sadness and anger filled my body.
I was almost reduced to tears at work.
I'm not ready to be done.
It's not for the lack of trying.
I tried!
I'm just so unhappy about it.
Today I came to work without my pump.
I feel naked.
It wasn't a good feeling.
I don't like it.
Friday, May 25, 2007
I'm naked
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Both times my body decided that on it's own too. People would say: drink more milk, drink more water, eat blah blah blah. I'm just not a milk machine like some people either!
kerrie,
i am so sorry that your heart and body aren't cooperating with one another. nursing is such a special and meaningful thing that i compeltely understand the sadness you feel at being done.
but i am just so stinkin' proud of you for doing all that you have to make it work this long!
many claim that nursing is so much more convienent than heating up formula...i say, what? have you actually nursed? it's frickin' hard work- to do naturally without the added work of PUMPING! which, i personally think SUCKS. but you do it, because you know how important it is. you're a champ in my opinion and you should be applauded for your efforts!
cheer up babe.
oh wait, here's some more bad news: you wouldn't think that the two ounces your boobies are pumping out could possibly effect the size of your chest, i mean really...two ounces. but mine went from small. to smaller-after i dried up completely. sorry...go have a beer. hey wait, i'll grab my purse and come with you.
Oh my...all this talk of boobs and boobies on 2 blogs of women that happen to be related to each other. YIKES.
No seriously, I am sorry sweetie that things haven't lasted longer than you have liked. WAHOO...it's time for a beer!
Oh sorry...we were being serious here. Forgot.
I am sorry to hear that Kerrie. It sounds like you gave it everything you got!!
You gave it a great try. You should be proud that Jack got the start that he did.
I'll gladly join you all for a beer now, too!!!
Did someone say beer? ;oD Just kiddin'. Sorry Ker, I know how important it was for you to nurse Jack, especially you didn't get to nurse that long with Claire either. You did it WAY longer than I did with both my kids combined. Heidi Jo is right, it is super-duper hard work. You put up the good fight. Good Job, sis!
You get an A for effort. Good Job Kerrie.
Sorry pal. Wish there was something I could do to help but er..there isn't.
Damn you all for the beer talk...I want one.
I know the feeling I did the same thing. My daughter was 4 mos. when I dried up. I cried. It sucks cause it is a special bond that mom and baby has together. I wished I could have gone longer too. Formula isn't cheap. And it is harder in public with a bottle cause people think it is like the most terrible thing to warm up water for you. At least if you are nursing you can go to the car or somewhere private and nurse, NO HASSLE! But now I am glad I don't nurse anymore. She is 9 mos now and there is no way she would sit still now.
You gave it all you could. You are a wonderful mother for nursing as long as you could. So don't even think you are cheating him. The first few months are the most important to nurse, that is when they are the most vulnerable to illness'.
It will get better. It is the inital sadness that sucks.
cheer up
Dawn
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